I like to be happy.
I like to laugh.
I like to smile.
I’m not always smiling.
Because I am not always happy.
Sometimes I don’t feel very good.
Sometimes I feel like I have a lot on my shoulders.
Sometimes people let me down.
Sometimes I let people down.
Sometimes things don’t go as planned.
But everyone around me seems happy.
So I feel guilty for my sadness.
I feel guilty for the heaviness.
I feel guilty for not having a smile on my face.
But you know what I am learning…
It’s ok to feel sad.
It’s ok to lose that smile for a bit.
I don’t have to be happy and smiling 24/7.
Theres a time for everything:
a time to weep and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn and a time to dance.
Joy is a gift.
Joy is a fruit.
It comes from the Holy Spirit.
I was never called to muster it up on my own.
I was never called to always be happy.
God didn’t call me to a life of constantly staying happy;
He called me to a life of faithfulness.
I was created by Him and for Him.
My utmost job is to give Him glory.
To seek Him. To know Him. To love Him.
When I am doing this and walking in step with His Spirit, the joy and happiness will come.
In Him I find my hope.
In His goodness and love I find my confidence that He is working all the things-
all the hard, the heavy, the messy things-
for my good and His glory.
I find my peace of mind in this.
I don’t have to feel guilty for the times of sadness.
I don’t have to feel guilty for the times theres a lack of happiness.
It’s not my goal.
It never was.
He’s the goal.
And when I am aiming for Him, everything else will come.