I wrote out my New Year’s resolutions and I’ve got them all neatly put into their little categories.
But that just wasn’t feeling like enough. I felt like what I wanted for this year couldn’t be put into little boxes I could check off. And I think that’s because faith can’t be put into a little box that you check off. So I thought I’d come up with a word that embodied what I wanted this year to look like and the person I wanted to become this year. Not a different person, but as Bob Goff would say, “the better version of myself.”
That’s the word I kept coming back to. That’s what I want this year to look like. I want everything that I am doing to be out of the overflow of what God has already done for me. I want to live out of a place of knowing I am fully known, fully loved, and fully equipped by my Heavenly Father. I want to be so satisfied in Him that nothing else compares. And I know this satisfaction will glorify Him.
“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.”
My friend Emma once described it like God as a faucet. We’re the cup.
He never turns off. When we place ourselves under Him He pours Himself out for us. When we are constantly putting ourselves under Him, the overflow from that is what we have to pour into others.
The problem arises when we take ourselves away from Him… when we try to fill ourselves with things that don’t satisfy us. We try to fill our own cups but we were never made to do that. We work and work at these things we think will make us happy and satisfy us, but in the end we find they fall short and/ or are short-lived, and we’re left tired and frustrated! Then we are trying to quench the ones around us when we aren’t even satisfied ourselves and that leaves us even more weary and drained.
As Christians we’re supposed to bare the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. I know a lot of the time in my own life I try to muster these up on my own when I feel like I am lacking, whether it’s by logic or whatever. This is not even biblical. God does not call me to produce these on my own. These attributes are FRUIT of the SPIRIT. These come from God. John Piper just said at Passion, “The heart doesn’t perform, it prefers. When you love Him and prefer Him, it will change your doings, not the opposite.”
John Piper also said “Joy in God is our first obligation. Joy overflowed in generosity is love”
This year I want to learn what it means to truly delight myself in God daily and live out of the overflow that that satisfaction brings. I want Him to be my first thought in the morning when I wake up and my whole day fixed around Him. I want to look for His blessings in all the little things throughout my day and praise Him for how He cares for me.
This sinful world y’all, it can feel like it does a lot of taking from us. Whether it’s people, health, time, whatever it may be…a lot of stuff is taken from us. And it does. And that’s truth. But I know my God gives. He gives me new mercies every single morning. He is rich in mercy and grace. He gave His son for us! He gives His Spirit. That’s truth as well. And that’s the truth I am believing and holding onto going in to this new year. He has so much to give us and so much He has already given us and equipped us with! I want to live with hands and arms wide open accepting it all and soaking up every bit of love He has for me…and I guess I’ll be standing like that forever, because thats another awesome thing about God: His love is forever.
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