Rewind back to September.
My body felt bad. Tired and weak. The more I pushed myself the worse I felt.
Fatigue left me feeling down and I could feel depression coming in again…slowly, but surely, and I began to panic at the thought of those feelings returning. I felt bitterness surging and anger swelling up.
I’d been through a round of depression before and was so mad this was happening again. It was getting in my way.
I had all these goals for school and for my blog and to have a Bible study again and to work out and cook and have a clean house. I felt like this illness was coming in and taking away all of my opportunities. It was taking my plans and dreams and leaving me feeling discouraged and defeated.
I felt like it was getting in the way of everything. I had an unfair disadvantage.
I was angry that God was allowing this to happen again. I cried out to Him in prayer and one day felt like I had the clearest response from Him. I said, “God, why are you letting this happen? This is just getting in my way for all these things I want to do and accomplish.”
And it was like He said:
“Mary Kate, you know I didn’t create you to be sick. That came from a fallen world. But I am still with you and I see you where you are. Your illness may keep you from all these hopes and dreams that YOU have, but it’s not going to keep you from what I have for you.”
Guys, that’s so true.
Ephesians 2:10 says this:
“For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God created beforehand that we should walk in them.”
God prepared good works for me beforehand. God also knew beforehand I would get sick. He did not place those good works and His plan for me out of my reach. Nothing that this world throws at me will take me out of His hand. As long as I keep my eyes on Him and on His kingdom, I am where I need to be.
Thats one of the many cool things about God. He can use anyone, anywhere to do His work. We’ve seen that in the Bible.
One of my favorite verses has always been Jeremiah 29:11
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘Plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans for a future and a hope.”
I know this verse doesn’t mean a believer’s life is going to be comfortable and rainbowlands all the time, but it encourages my heart that God has a plan for me and can use me no matter what.
“For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
So all of that to say, no matter what you may be facing today or may face in the future, God still has a plan for you and can still use you. Nothings too big of an obstacle for him. Just keep your eyes on Him and seek to glorify Him with your life.